My heart just breaks for you~ it's obvious that Mattie was well loved and cared for just by looking at her precious sweet face! I know you must just miss her terribly
. I'm sorry that she had to suffer at all, but I'm glad it wasn't for too terribly long (although, I'm sure it seemed like an eternity to you). Bless you for all you did for her and for all you had to go thru too, it's just the worst feeling to see them suffering and not be able to help them. I'm sure that Mattie is looking down at you from the Rainbow Bridge (in between her zooming around with the other sweet doggies there) and hoping that you know how much she loved you. I'm so sorry.