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Originally Posted by celstu1  I feel like I "know' he is it. He is the one and its going to happen... and maybe thats what makes me panicked... sometimes I feel that Im still too young (at heart at this point.. Im 31) to get married and settled down. ya know? So sometimes I panic a bit at the thought of losing my independance even just a tiny bit. Although today I had it out with him a little bit, I feel that we are perfectly independant capable people, him & I. I am going away this weekend with some girlfriends. He is ok with it, but clearly bummed out. I am not happy about it. I shouldn't have to feel GUILTY because Im going away for a night. So he is stessing himself out bc he wants to see me as early as possible on sunday but his ex-wife is giving him crap about getting the kids. I try to make things easy bc I dont have kids or an ex that I need to keep contact with. I dont see my dad but I am going to see my grandfather on sunday, well my guy can't make it due to scheduling conflicts with his kids and family and hes now MORE upset that he cant see me tonight, saturday and now not until late on sunday. I dont want to hear it because it scares me to think hes become dependant on my company enough that he gets upset with 2 days apart. That, to me, is not healthy.
blah blah blah.. maybe its just me! Maybe Im TOO independant. My mom thinks I'll never get married because Im too independant. lol |
*Looks around guiltily* - I didn't get married until I was 38!!!!!!! Only because I'd never met anyone prior to that who made me want to stop being single. And, I guess I just wasn't ready - and I wasn't worried about kids, bc I knew I'd be happy with or without them, mine or adopted. So, I met Tony when I was 36, we started dating when I was 37, and we got married when I was 38. Old lady!
On one hand, I think it's so adorable that he wants to see you so badly. On the other, I do know what you mean where it kind makes you feel caged in. It sounds like you just have a wonderful independence that, on one hand, he probably adores - but on the other, probably makes him feel a bit insecure. He probably just needs a little reassurance that you're not going off to have a "Girls Gone Wild" kind of weekend, lol. It's sorta cute. "HONEY, we're only going to ONE male strip club. ONE. Mmmkay?"
