Joan, I'm in school right now and I'm trying so hard not to cry. My heart broke in half when I saw this thread. I wish more than anything that I could give you the biggest hug possible. I love you so much and I know that you and Crystal shared a common love that WILL continue on into the next life. I am so, so sorry for your terrible loss. I'm going to PM you my phone number, and if you'd like you can call me (though I'm in school, but afterwords I'm here for you whenever you need me.)
Rest in Peace, sweet Crystal.