I'm so sorry that you lost little Joey — I just read your other thread about his leg surgery. I can't believe that this happened
I really feel for you right now, I can't imagine what you must be going through. But please don't feel guilty. Give your other boys some extra hugs and kisses to help you through the pain. It will get a little easier each day and hopefully you can find a little peace in the knowledge that he's gone to a better place and is no longer in pain.