Oh my goodness. I am crying with you too. I am so sorry you lost your baby. We all know that day *will* come, and no matter how much we don't want it and no matter how much we would give for it to never come, it does.
Honey, I can't explain why, but for *some reason* your baby Joey was only meant to be here with you for a short period of time. But in that time I know he gave you a lifetime of memories and a lifetime of love. You will meet again, and it's then that you'll understand the *why*
Please give your boys hugs for me, and hold on to them tight, they love you too as well as Joey and I bet they are feeling sad as well.