Wendy,
Oh Honey, I'm am so sorry

I lost my little Peanut in January. He was hit by a car and I felt as though I had failed him. I understand. I kept thinking, he relied on me to protect him.
Wendy, had we known, we would have protected them.

I hope that you can find some peace.
I have MS as well and I understand the importance of having a companion when you're having bad days and need someone to curl up with.
God Bless you and Godspeed to Bennie and Tess. R.I.P.