Originally Posted by leipshen  First, let me say that my heart goes out to you. There is just something so special about Yorkies that you do actually fall in love with the very idea of owning one. Once you know that a baby is waiting for you, you fall in love with the puppy before you ever even see it.
I am so sorry for your loss.
As for your the confusion you are experiencing...
i realize that you have found a breeder whom you greatly respect and trust. It is understandable that you want to get your baby from someone with these all important qualities. I would, however, consider the possibility of asking your breeder (friend) if she might be willing to refer you to another breeder that she knows and also trusts. If she is a very reputable breeder chances are that she knows of other equally as trustworthy breeders. I am sure she feels great compassion, as well , great appreciation for your loyal patience. This is simething you might think about.
As for your strong desire for a little girl...I also used to feel exactly like yourself. Throughout my entire life I have always owned female dogs. I simply never even considered owning a male. Well...that was until I owned my first Yorkie!
I came to being "Armani's" mom as a matter of "CIRCUMSTANCES." My daughter had bought this absolutely adorable tiny Yorkie. She had taken a long time finding just the right one. He was extrememy tiny. He was 14 wks when she brought him home. He weighed under a pound. He was cheeky, playful, loving and oh so brave. Still, I thought to myself that I would have gotten a female, ( I could not have given any explicite reason for this). After only one week of being around this delightful little spitit, and being constantly made to laugh and smile at this this "little man's" adorable personality, I must have fallen deeply in love with him. I guess I didn't realize just how very attached I had become (remember he belonged to my daughter), until the second week that he lived with us.
My daughter worked and "Armani" was home with me. I noticed that he seemed listless. He didn'[t want to eat. At the time I knew nothing of Hypoglycemia. After sitting with him for approx 1 hour, I became extremely frightened . I knew in my heart that this puppy was in danger. It was evening so I rushed hin to the emergency vet. My daughter met me there. They took little "Armani" in, not letting us go back with him. The minute he was out of my sight, I completely went to pieces. The vet came out to say he was very sick. His blood sugar had dropped dramatically. I sobbed. I could not picture going home and living another day without that happy faced little soul. They told us we should go home, they would keep us informed. My daughter left. I could not go home. I could not go into the house without him. I stayed for 4 more hours, Each hour the vet would give me a report. By the fourth hour the vet told me that he had come around very well. He was going to be fine.
I cried so hard from happiness and thanked Jesus out loud, over and over. The office girls said" "Wow"!, "You really love that little guy"! I then realized just how much I adored him. Once home he was back to his bouncy, happy, loving self.
Even with the best of care, and my paying attention to every detail I had learned, "Armani" experienced 3 more episodes like the first one. I had learned a great deal and I sat up with him, and attended to him minute by minute. Thank God, he came through each time. After he reached 6 months he never again had an episode of hypoglycemia.
Throughout this six months, I guess my daughter had been observing this great bond which had developed between this precious little boy Yorkie and myself. She came to me one day and told me that she had put a deposit on a little female Pom puppy. When I looked at her with question she said "Mom" , I believe that God decided who was going to be "Armani"s mommy before I even bought him." "I was only meant to be the one to bring him home to you, because we both know that if you had been the one out looking for a puppy...you would have bought the wrong one...A Female"!
I hugged her, then she started telling me about her new baby girl.
Ya know..I couldn't help thinking..."If it were me..I would have gotten a BOY!!
Have great faith that God feels and understands the pain and confusion you are now experiencing. Allow yourself to be comforted with this knowledge.Then believe this truth...We will always hunger for the reasons why...God knows us better than we know ourselves, only He knows Why, however, if you are willing to "LET GO and LET HIM, you will immediately realize that you don't have to make any decision at all right now. Keeping your heart and mind open..to being led by these circumstances..go to see, whenever an opportunity is presented to you...KNOWING that He is leading you right to the special Yorkie that He has intended for you. At the moment this occurs, you will not feel confused or the need to decide...You Will Know!
You have so much to look forward to!!!!
God Bless |