My thoughts after reading all of your wonderful messages I just sure hope I have the same feelings later this afternoon. I'm so clueless right now, funny because I never feel like this.
I think that if a get a boy (puppy) then I might not be happy since I have always wanted a girl... You see I'm 39 and went into early
menopause. I had been trying to conceive since I was in my early 20's. Then when I didn't... and I knew it was never going to happen... I finally gave my kitty... the baby name that I saved for so many years... Sophia Marie. That's were I got my screen name, Diana (me) Sophia (cat).
So, when I learned about the wonderful Breed of Yorkies... the first thing that came to mind, was that little (human) baby that I didn't get to have. But, If I had a Yorkie... then I could bath her, brush her, topknots, dress her, show off to my friends and family, and most of all... love her to death. No different then a human baby... well, beside the fact that she would have 4 legs and a tail... but who's looking at the small stuff.
So my Breeder told me that if I wanted she would let me bring Lola home while I wait on Roxi to deliver. That is if she is even pregnant. I can't believe she will let me love on Lola, while I wait. Lola is a very... very... expensive dog and I would be very scared if anything happened while she was here. She is a dog that I would never be able to afford myself and my Breeder is offering her to come and stay with me while I wait on Roxi's babies.
Since my Breeder lives by the YTCA standards she is only able to have some many litters within so many years. This is what I love about YTCA. It breaks my heart when any animal is over-bred and so this is why I went to her.
I wish I could keep both of them but I'm in a 1-bedroom Condo (upstairs) and I have 2 in-door cats (Jasper & Sophia Marie) and a African Grey Parrot named Yogi, who's 20 years old. I don't think that we would have room for 2 dogs with my husband and I living here too. Unless?? My husband moves! (hehehe) I don't think he would be very happy. I can't believe I even thought
about this.
A lot of you are very right... if I make a choice on a dog, just because I'm sad, then I will not end up being happy with my decision later. I waited for a 1-1/2 years... what's a couple more months to get what I want. I've always said, "that I have a lot of patience's" but, it seams to have gone right out the window... when I lost LeiLani. I'm working on trying to get my patience back.