 I almost lost Sophie..
never will i put another collar on my little baby's neck!
but i do blame myself for being so absent minded and, well, stupid.
it was only for an hour, at most,
but i had to leave sophie at home because unfortnately there are places that don't allow my baby. In a hurry, i put her in the bathroom -- as usual, gave her water and some toys to keep her occupied. But little sophie had bigger plans, to try and chew on her collar.
Well, when i got home, i heard screaming coming from the back bathroom.
My mom (who had returned home before me, thank god) was in the bathroom with a pair of scissors, trying to cut the collar off. Apparently, sophie had the collar stuck in her mouth, and couldn't get it out. She was freaking out. I always correct sophie when i see her try to chew her collar, and usually i take the collar off before i leave her, but this particular day -- i was so rushed that i forgot to, and also forgot my purse with my drivers license. How unfortunate that the one time i forget, she decides to chew on it and nearly kill herself.
there was a lot of blood on her face and paws, which later we found not to be associated with the collar incident, but rather her losing her puppy teeth, because today she had another of her episodes, where she starts pawing at her teeth, and i saw blood on her paws. So i was about to take her to the vet when she spit out her tooth. I was so relieved to see it was not something more serious.
i feel like such a horrible person, and i keep thinking about it, and beating myself up over it. Everytime i look at her, i know she doesn't understand what happened, and i cry because i was careless and i almost caused that innocent puppy to lose her life. I am now a paranoid mother. I hate leaving her alone, when i do, all these horrible thoughts cross my mind. For the most part, though, she never leaves my side, but today i have to leave her to visit my brother in the hospital. so i am a little nervous..
anyway, i am sorry this turned out to be such a long post,
but i felt such guilt, i had to let it off my chest. |