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Originally Posted by mypreciouspups  Wendy.. I am just checking in to see how you are doing right now..please take care of yourself.. I know it is so much easier said then done..
Do you live in the country.. I am thinking you need to get a new baby to make you feel that you have something to get up for.. I know we are all different.. some cannot bear the thought.. I personally would need a new baby for a distraction.. some one to cuddle and love and keep me busy from thinking..
I also want you to know I lost a 5 year old that fell off the bed she slept on for three years.. just a freak.. I was guilt ridden also.. then I lost a 5 year old when the vet gave him his needles.. same on he had a reaction to the year before.. at the time.. I did not think it was up to me when his chart was ever so tiny.. he had not been a sick dog.. so I left it to the vet to know what he was doing.. again the guilt I wore.. I learned that now I tell my vet what to do and what not to do..
But getting a new yorkie each time.. was all that saved me and kept me going.. for I wanted to die inside..
If you live in the country and get a new baby to love.. make a sheltered gated area. I know my friend in florida does this.. and she made a roof for it also..
Not sure if I helped you or not.. but have been thinking about you so much...sending prayers and big hugs..anne |
Thank you so much for your heartfelt message. This is now 5 day's into this nightmare. I am truly concerned of my mental well being. I can't look outside without thinking about their last moments. Tess was found. I could tell her I loved her and give her a place to rest. Bennie was not found. I obsess about what he may have gone through. Yet, at the same time, I keep looking at every piece of landscape thinking He will some how miraculously be at the door. I do live rural. I am very aware of the wildlife. I am so cautious. My husband just opened the door Monday evening to get something form the car and they saw a rabbit. That quick out of view and a scream. I lost my best friends. I will one day fill my heart with a new baby. I will insure that a safe area will keep the innocent one from ever being another fatality. Thank you for your prayers. This is still very raw. Wendy