[Duncansmom]

I have never posted personal stuff on here...but you have all been so nice to me and I could use a lil ...I dunno encouragement I guess. Im just having one of those days where the tears keep fallin....and Im feeling like a failure. I have 3 great kids, 2 dtrs, 26 and 20 and one son who turned 19 last wed. My sons father hasnt been in his life since he was 10. That was his fathers choice....and I feel like i have failed my son b/c I have over indulged him and now he has a serious case of "entitlement issues". I know its all my fault. I was only trying to compensate for the wrongs of his father. My husband who is wonderful, has raised him since he was 5 and he tried to tell me it would be a problem later on and he was so right. My son leaves for college in august and Im afraid now that he wont be able to cope in the real world, even tho deep down I know he will be fine. I guess whats really hurting me is that he didnt even get me a card or anything for mothers day. he spent the entire day w his gf and her family and totally blew me off. My heart is breaking but I only have myself to blame. When he was 17, I started to "wean" him off us, but he has gotten in over his head with his car and insur. ect. Do I let him fall and deal with it or do I help him up a lil? I just dont know anymore. Crying seems to be the only answer I can come up with right now. Maybe tomorrow will be a lil more clear.
Sorry to use your shoulders, but Im glad you are all here anyways. seeing all your babies helps alot. Thanks for listening..... (or reading lol)