Aww Edith i am so sorry about your dad
I wish i could give you a hug. I didn't know my dad was my dad until i was 12, if that makes sense. Well my dad, the man that helped my mom raise me is not my biological father but he was the one that would take me to school, give me allowance, buy me presents and just be my dad. Anyway my mom i and my brother would take trips to florida where we would stay with my 'moms friend' who also had 2 daughters. I found out when i was 12 that he is my biological father. I visit him in Florida sometimes and talk to him every couple months and call him 'dad' just for the sake of it but becuase he didn't raise me it's very hard for me to call him that and say 'i love you' when it comes natural for me to say it to my 'dad the one that DID raise me'. Anyway your post made me realize even though he wasn't there for me for the 1st 12 yrs of my life as a dad, i still should keep in touch with him and call him more. It's not his fault, he wanted me to know he was my father, but my mom didn't tell me, i guess cause she thought it would be hard since he lives in Florida. He's always been kind and there for me. He said if i ever want to move to florida i have somewhere to go. And i have 2 older half sisters, i look like both of them which i always noticed but never thought anything of it. Anyway its up to me to keep in touch with him, cause he does call me and i sometimes ignore it. It's hard but im going to try to communicate with him and my sisters more. But now i really have a dilemma cause when i get married who will walk me down the aisle?
I am so sorry you never got to have that relationship with your dad. I'm sure deep inside he knew you loved him. You were young, it's not your fault at all. I was, am the same way. Hugs to you girl!!
