okayy ... so last night when i got home from my retreat, my mom called me into her room and sat me down and told me absolutely heartbreaking news. she told me that my brother and his girlfriend broke up. now some of you are probably saying "so?" or "thats their situation", but theres other things behind the situation. im at the end of eighth grade, and matt(21 now) and his girlfriend, Shawn(18 now), got together about 2 weeks before i went into sixth grade. we clicked immediately, and have spent every weekend together since, with or without matt. i dont have a sister, so shes the closest thing i have. i look up to her and respect her with all of my heart. now, nothing is going to be the same. im going to miss her coming over at 10 in the morning on saturday and leaving at 11, just to do it again the next day. if matt and mike weren't home and i was bored, she would bring over our favorite movie (the notebook) and we would watch it a few times. im going to miss the times she pops up at my cheering games just to watch me perform, and the times she shows up at my house before work just to make plans for us for after work. i know i should still be able to hang out with her and all that, but she wont be able to show up where matt is because that would be very awkward for them. (and im usually with matt, so thats no help)
theres another less-selfish reason this breakup breaks my heart. Matthew is my best friend and i love him so very much. seeing him sad makes me want to stop the world just to make it right for him. i dont care how gushy that sounds:
I LOVE MY BROTHER . this morning i heard him in the hallway, so i went to say good morning to him and all that, then he told me to meet him in his room in like 5 minutes. he seemed very chipper and cheery(he prob. knew i knew what happened, but didnt say anything). i was almost worried at what he had to talk to me about. i was in his room and it was very awkward, which i never feel when im alone with him. i guess he didnt want to talk about it right away, and i was in no position to bring it up. he just asked about confirmation (hes my sponsor) to immediately change the subject, i assume. but then, as i answered his question, he started crying. i have only seen him cry about 5 times in my whole life because he figured he had to stay strong in front of me so i would do the same.i consoled him all that i could when he was crying. i told him everything was going to be okay and we just talked from 7:30 to 10:45 . i even started crying because in my heart, i knew there was nothing i could do about it.
im sorry this is so long everyone, i just never thought i'd see the day come that they would split apart. thank you for reading. any comments would be appreciated.
