Girl I'm sorry. I had a cousin kill herself and it took me years to understand it. When my husband died I fell into the darkest cave I've ever been in for many reasons - but now understand why people take this drastic step
on the other hand - I can't see how they can get past what it does to the people who love them, to me.... that's the reason NOT to do it....
they must feel so hopeless there seems no other way. ...maybe he had a terminal illness or something that he just couldn't cope with ? We really never know what goes thru anyones minds....ever.
hugs - I'm here if you need to talk you know that right ?