I hate to even admit this or be in the position that I need to. I just need some ideas of what I can do to help my Madison.
As you may or may not know, Madison was found starving in the desert. I took him and tried to find his owners. This was on the 20th of March. He was very thin and wolfed down his food and put on a fair amount of weight. After he was here for ...I can't recall now...maybe a week or more, he started having gastro-intestinal issues. I knew his poops hadn't been nice, like Max's but I assumed it was b/c he'd been eating only God knows what and it would get better the longer he was eating decent food regularly. The shelter pointed out to me that he had probably been used as, or planned to be used as a stud at a puppy mill and he either got out after a female in heat or somebody just abandoned him. Which is probably why I never found any owners
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My dh was extremely upset with me for taking Madison in, but I just couldn't turn my back and of course, looking back, I should have known better, but I honestly thought I'd find his owners.
One reason he didn't want him is b/c we can't afford vet bills, which I knew, but I was hoping the money I have been getting for work would be used for that, so he wouldn't have to know. I work for very little money, which wasnt' my plan, but that's kind of how it's working out and I've been making really cute belly bands, thinking I could sell them somewhere in the future to help out with Madison's vet stuff.....he still needs his shots, which I was wanting to make sure he had at least a completely good week as far as his belly went so if he got sick, I'd know if it was from the shots or not. So far, there's been one thing or another occur before we got a good week down. I was planning on taking him to the low cost animal clinic here which is very good. I also got a voucher to help with the major part of his neutering, but of course, he needs his shots first before they'll do that, and I can't have it done til he's feeling better.
So...the bottom line is this: I signed up for a Paypal account b/c that's the easiest way for my boss who lives in another state, to pay me. Come to find out, to get access to your money, you have to have a bank account, which I don't have and I need the money in the Paypal to even open one up. It's like a vicious circle. My dh will not (does not have the money for) pay for me to take Madison to the vet.
Last week he was doing great; I was feeding him a bland diet, everything was perfect until Monday morning when I got up to several poops in the house and they progressively got looser and looser. I gave him some Pepto Bismol and he refused to eat all day. Other than not eating, he was pretty much normal...running around playing with Max when Max would run around, and come evening mealtime, he wolfed down all his rice/turkey and then promptly threw it up. I was sure that it was b/c he'd eaten too fast. Later on, he was interested in eating, so I gave him a very small amount of his food and he kept it down....the next morning his poops were better and he was back to his old self.
He was FINE until this morning at 3 am ....he wanted to go out and when I picked him up, I could hear the ominous sound of his belly rumbling....I knew whatever has been bugging him was starting again. He ran outside, don't know what he did b/c it was dark, and I picked him up, brought him in , thought maybe he had an irritable stomach b/c he hadn't eaten anything for awhile, so I offered him a little rice and turkey. He didn't want it so then I knew he wasn't feeling good. I gave him Pepto Bismol and we went back to bed although I couldn't sleep. He has been having very small mucusy type stools since today.....he vomited once just a tiny bit about an hour or two ago and I gave him some more Pepto. I had been reading and was thinking maybe he has some sort of worms, so I was getting ready to go to Petsmart to get some SafeGuard to try if he is eating this evening (before he's always not eaten all day and then at night, he will eat and is fine after that). Anyway, after the Pepto (about 10 min), he drank some water...not a lot, just some. About 15-20 min. later, he vomited quite a bit (it looked mostly like Pepto Bismol and water with a little yellowish/brownish in it). That was an hour almost 2 hours ago and he's sleeping under the desk right now.
He still jumps up and runs outside if Max does, but it's obvious that he needs to be seen by a vet. This is the weekend. I wanted to take him this morning but my dh said we don't have any money. And he says he doesn't want me using the money in my Paypal that I can't get to anyhow for this, however, that's EXACTLY what I have been working for to begin with.
I just want to know if anyone knows how I can access my Paypal money without having a bank account or credit. My dh of course, has one but if I use his account, then he'll have to know, and he's being terrible about it right now. I don't have much, but I'm hoping that I can just give it to my vet and make payments somehow for however much more it will be.
I'm desperate. I love this little guy more than I can even tell you. I have been trying my hardest to get him healthy with no help from my dh and now I just don't know what to do. I hate having to air my dirty laundry here, or anywhere, but I'm so afraid he's going to die or be so sick before my dh realizes that he's not going to "just get well" that it will be too late.
I KNOW what I SHOULD do, but I can't right now, and my dh I don't think really cares how I feel. Please, please, don't flame me or make me feel any worse about myself and this situation, I would rather die than Madison die. He is so dear. And he loves me and trusts me so much, I don't understand why though. I just am trying to figure a way to get him help. I know people here have good ideas and have been thru either themselves being in such a hopeless situation, or knowing other people who have been. I don't know much about bank accounts and had no idea what Paypal was all about so it sounded like a good deal to me.....not turning out that way. I just don't know what to do.
I know I'll probably regret putting this all out on the table, and I hope nobody will think less of me for it. I do love both Max and Madison more than anything in the world. I just need either a good slap in the head and/or somebody to tell me WHAT to do.