I feel so bad for you, that was a very heartfelt post and i felt you hurt..
I have been there a few times.. I loved them all so so much.. I would ache from crying so much..but when I lost a 5 year old.. It gave me a new meaning to when it is time when they are old and have lived the greatest life.. I think how sad it is to lose them at a young age..I lost pooh at 5 years old, that was over 4 years now.. he never leaves my thoughts.. I swear he is with me all the time anyway. But a year ago, it was really bad for me.. I had to put his mother down.. he quality of life was just unbearable to watch.. and when I lost her.. i had really lost pooh over again.. they were so much the same yorkies..
everyone is different.. but it is never a sin to get a new yorkie.. I always did, for not matter what none would replace a beloved pet I had lost.. but it sure kept me busy and my mind occupied.. and to me.. it showed how I was so honored to have had them in my life and with losing them, I needed another one to love..
I layed in bed when pooh died, I could not eat, cried till it hurt.. and wanted to die with him.. and I hade them all cremated.. so I tell my hubby.. if I go first he must have them in with me.. he said if I can get all the urns in with you by then I will be lucky..
hugs to you in this time of grief and sorrow and such a hard decision to make.. I was to take sassie.. just cried so much.. by the time I went the second time.. I did it, was with her right to the end..most of us know the loss this is to us...
anne |