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Originally Posted by broodizt  Hello all,
This forum is the only place I could think to go after talking to my vet and crying and crying my eyes out for three days straight. I have not slept in days and all I can do is hold my little Merlin and cry. Merlin is my soon to be (in October) 17 years old yorkie, the love of my life. I've had him since 6 weeks old and we were inseperable. Now my parents live with me and they adore him as well. He went completely blind last year and seemed to go downhill fast after that. He has lost tons of weight and just eats bits of his food only after we beg him to eat. He is down to about two pounds and he used to weigh about 3 to 31/2 lbs. He drinks tons of water and unrinates tons and tons. He has been incontinent since he lost his sight. He mouth smells very foul but the vet will not clean his teeth by putting him under because she did a few tests and his numbers from the urine test was astronomical (indication of kidney function). She says normal is about 2 to 21/2 and his number is 30!!!!! And he gets too stressed out to have them cleaned manually. He has a collapsed trachea and if he gets too stressed this sets him off.
He is skin and bones now. All he does is sleep. He does not seem to be in pain but he appears very frail and weak. I am dying inside. Is there no hope? Is there anything on this earth I can do to help him? I just cannot seem to let him go. I am crying as I write this. I cry all the time. I do have another little one. Her name is Cassie. She is beautiful and very tiny (only two pounds full grown, but healthy except for reverse sneezing or allergies). But I spend most of my time with Merlin. He is the most special wonderful companion in the universe. I am so stuck. I do not know what to do. When is the right time to put him to sleep? Is it right to do this now? I am afraid I do not have the strenghth to let him go. Please Please, somebody help me. Shellie  |
Hi Shellie
I feel your pain 2 years ago now i lost my pooh to kidney failure
she was 12 as you she was three pounds and so needed her teeth clean as this what was causing her kidney failure due to infection even though she was on meds for the infection to no avail she started to fad i did subque at
home for 2 weeks did blood test and nothing seem to get better but as one morning when i was giving her the subque she gave me a look as if to say no more mom i love you to but you must let me go it is my time did i cry yes tons of tears so i called my vet and took her in it was one of the hardest things i have ever done it took me all day i would sit in my jeep and love on her and cry and tell myself ok you are ready and i would go in and i would go back out and start this all over again from 8 am in the morning until 5 pm that night i could just not let her go after all the clients were gone for the day my vet came and sat with me and cried to and i finally said ok it is time
so that was it i miss my pooh more than words can say and yes it hurt but sometimes we have to be unselfish with how we feel to let the little ones go and be in piece to beable to see again and run and play and be happily waiting on the rainbow bridge for us he will always be with you in heart and in spirit may you find the courage to do what is right for your little guy and may god be with you threw all.