Thanks everyone for the support...it was just a very numb feeling last night...plus some guilt on my part (for not being 100% in the loop)...my mother and I have been arguing and so although we were planning on going together to visit my grandmother we haven't "spoken"...she must have known about my brother for awhile if he is leaving for boot camp so soon...but she is stressed that he won't come back, and then she had a kidney stone stuck in her euretha (sp)..plus addtional ones that they broke up for her to pass, my aunt is by marriage but I have known her since I am 4 ( she is part of the family!!!) and I had to go to a chrsitening next week but I will be making plans to see her in Florida...and my gradmother is a trooper but her husband is getting really bad and he may have to go to a home. But I have a wonderful babysitter for Maximus where he will be spending a couple of days next week (she has a yorkie too and she is spoiled just like our babies)...I feel bad that Maximus had to see his mom sad last night but he knew something was wrong because he woke up about every hour on the hour to come to the side of the bed and give kisses .... and then went back to his side....my bf was at his mother's (his grandmother is going through chemo treatments and in case anything should happen mid-night) so he is over there a couple of times a week for now~~ I almost caved and let Maximus sleep in the bed but that would of been confusing for him so I gave him kisses and he went back to lay down. I haven't even spoken to my boyfriend yet in detail about what is going on....he just called to make sure that I was alright (from visitng my mom) and Maximus was okay (going to sleep)~ but I didn't want him to come home because he was worried...I'd rather he stayed over there and I was just by myself with Maximus |