Thanks everyone! Really appreciate the support ... especially after someone (not on YT) had the audacity to imply that just because I'm 42, it was ridiculous to be frightened over something ailing
my mother -- even if it IS serious.

Meaning, that just because I'm grown, I no longer have a right to be afraid to lose my mother!
OH was I livid. I may never speak to this person again.
Of course I'm fearful and concerned! Boy, what a sh*t I would be if I were not. My mom
is my immediate family -- and I am hers. That's it. While there are a few assorted cousins, and we're both blessed with friends that are often
better than family, there isn't anyone else.
And this is my mom. My mom who pretty much raised me on her own when she could easily gone off and just did what she wanted to like my dad did.
Was that ever the wrong thing to say to me!