[altigger74]

I definiately will wait until I can be calm a rational before I send a letter. I'm not sure about calmness just an overwhelming need to protect my mom. When she finally does grieve I'm thankful that my two sisters and brother are close around her. since I live so far away I can only be an ear for her. It's sad that the four of us (my two sisters, me and my brother) have done more to help my mom and grandfather than the ten other grandkids let alone his own daughters. My mom is a very strong woman that has been through some horrible things but I don't know how long she can go like this. I thought the other day I had finally started to greive for my grandmother but I think I am so upset for my mom and sad for my grandfather that they are who I am greiving for.