Belinda, I am so very sorry to hear of your tragic loss.  I know how devestating it is to lose a beloved little friend.  I will keep you in my heart and prayers.  It took almost 5 years for my heart to heal enough to allow another Yorkie into my life after I lost my beloved LacieBug to a very rare brain disorder. 
 
Please,  allow yourself plenty of time to grieve -- one day you will think of your beloved Bellaluna and smile -- that's when healing begins..... hugs to you