[halesmom]

I know I am new to the group and I have two other yorkies one 5 years old and one 3 months old...but I lost my baby last Mother's Day and it kills me to talk about the puppy and never mention Zoe. Zoe was my heart my life...my baby. She was born in my house and I raised her from her first breathe...She was a happy go lucky puppy just like any other yorkie I have every raised...until I took her in to get her first shots....At that time the vet realized that she had a PDA which is a shunt in the heart that all puppies are born with (it is what sends the oxygenated blood through their bodies while in the womb) but they are supposed to close up within the first weeks of birth...They referred me to several different vets and they all pretty much told me to put her down or have surgery done to repair it...So I contacted Auburn to try to get the sugery done but they wouldn't do it because she was too small... so I proceeded to try to get her to grow...my local vet put her on prescription food and even though they all said she wouldnt make it past 7 months old....SHE DID...she was a completely normal acting puppy...THEN....when she turned 8 months old she had a seizure...she went into the hospital for days and the vet finally told me I could take her home but she would be in a hospice state for the rest of her life...and be blind...when I got her home and she heard Abby I put her down right in front of her and when Abby took off running and playing so did Zoe...within 24 hours she could see again and was her old self again...she had spells off and on her whole life but only for like 24 hours and then it would be months before she would have another one....the spells were not horrible I could see them coming and I would give her the meds and she wouldn't go into the seizure just would be lazy for a day....then 3 and a half years later....she started having apnea in the night...she got up the next morning and ate and my hubby was going to take her to the vet for me as I had to go to work...He got up and was getting ready...by the time I got to work she was seizuring...The vet met him at the office and got her to stop seizuring but she didn't pull through the following night...so I got the call Mother's Day morning. I miss her so much. This baby did everything with me...EVEN SHOWERS...no kidding she was there for me when I took my showers...she slept by me in the bed...everything I was so protective of her that I think she became closer to me than any others just because I worried about her so much. I carried her everywhere...she only weight 2lbs 3 oz when she passed away...I had her cremated so that I will always have her with me...And I think about her everyday... Anyway, I guess I feel guilty talking about Abby and our new addition Lexi without mentioning Zoe because Zoe was the biggest part of our lives...I just wanted to share that with everyone...

Thank you
Loving and Missing my Zoe forever...here is a pic of Zoe