I feel so guilty. It was so long after the 4th puppy that I fell asleep next to the box waiting for the last one. I woke up to Ciara licking and I looked and she'd had the the puppy but it was limp. I picked the baby up. I thought she was dead, but I suctioned and shook her down and breathed in her mouth and nose, anyway. She never cried. I was ready to give up when I saw her jaw move. I stuck my finger in her mouth and she closed her jaw on it a little and I could feel her tongue working; like she was trying to suck. I put a drop or two of NutriDrops on her tongue. Then I started over and suctioned and shook and breathed, but she never cried and she was just limp.
Several times I was sure she was dead, but she wasn't. I finally took her in to the vet, because I couldn't just let her die if there might be the slightest chance. By the time I got her there I was told she was agonal(sp) breating. I guess they do that right before they die. They took her and listened to her heart. She had a very faint heart beat so they gave her shot of epinepherine(sp), but her heart stopped anyway and there was nothing more anybody could do.
I feel so guilty. Ciara trusted me and I let her baby die. |