Why is it that god always seems to take the good ones first? My heart is aching for you. I have had many four legged friends over my life and the pain of loss is almost unbearable. But, the treasured memories I have of each lil soul live on forever. I, as Im sure most of us who love and have furbabies, know exactly where your feelings are at this moment. Please know you are NOT alone. I have recently lost my maltese Spike, it too was sudden and totally unexpected. He was a diabetic and had to have 2 shots a day. He was doing great. Took each shot like a trooper (mostly cuz he knew the cheese was a gimme) and on a thursday nite, I gave him his shot and he was fine. then...he started to bleed from the injection site. As a nurse I knew the red flag and got him to the vet first thing in the am. He spent the next few days in hosp. I had just gotten my 81 y old dad out of hosp after major surg for colon cancer and he was recovering at my house. So I had my hands full. Sunday nite, my dad turned septic and he was rushed back to hosp and put on life support. The next morning, Monday, 8 am I got the call from my vet. he was in tears (he loved spike too) and he told me he was gone. he bled into his lungs and died in his sleep. I didnt think I could breathe. My heart was shattered.
And then some time passed, dad recovered after another major surg, and my heart began to mend. Altho, when I see a maltese to this day, I tear up. but I know that Spike lived a happy life and would want me to be happy as well. I had major guilt that I wasnt there with him, I would have been 24/7 if I had only known but that wasnt to be. I never got to say goodbye. Maybe thats good in a way I dont know.
Today, I have 2 wonderful yorkies Duncan 1 and Piper 14 weeks. they are the loves of my life. I think of Spikey everyday and carry him with me always. As you will too. Time helps to heal but not forget.
Im sure Spike was there to show Zack where the best toys are!
May God keep his loving arms around you and your family and bring you peace.
Elizabeth Duncan and Piper
