Oh my gosh, i am so sorry this happened. Your post just hit me in my heart . I can not imagine the pain that you are feeling right now and I know that words will not make this feel any better. I wish I could give you a big hug {{{{{
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I will say a special prayer for you and your little man. The only thing else that I can say is PLEASE do not feel guilty or take the blame for this. Please keep in touch.