Awww, I'm sorry you're having a bad time. It can take a while to feel like you've made friends on a forum as large as this one but stick with us!
I totally understand how you feel! Hugs!
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"If you have men who will exclude any of God’s creatures from the shelter of compassion and pity, you will have men who will deal likewise with their fellow men." — St. Francis of Assisi, 1181-1226