No Im sure you are not the only one! We all go through periods of time where we wonder what the heck we did to deserve whats going on. 2 years ago my fiance of 10 years & I broke up, had to sell our house, cancel the wedding, pack and move and on top of it all... my 5 month old yorkie died!
Man did I wonder back then what the heck was going on. Why was I being put through all that at once. But then you can see more clearly once the strong emotions pass and realize that most of it happened to make room for something better, or it happened for a reason and although at the time it was senseless (and sometimes still seems that way) it was for a reason. I think my dog died bc he would have been a link to my ex, my ex would have used him to still be around me. That link needed to be broken and severed. Sad and horrible as it was, it helped me move on!