 Dare I need to hear a 'thank you' ?
I am grateful for everything my husbands parents have helped us with.. I am grateful for my husband. There are times; however that I feel like chopped liver.
We live with his parents and as a 'thank you' I do the grocery shopping once a week. I am a full time student and do my own cleaning up in the up stairs bonus room we stay in. My point is that it feels like I never do enough or that I never do anything right. Every single time I get the groceries and hand my father-in-law the receipt he says "whoa! that's a lot of money" or "wow, I guess we need all this food" or they now don't get their cleaning I do and I have to start the dishwasher and unload it... am I the only person that lives here?! Don't get me started on my husband. They have always had "maids" to do all their cleaning and I just refuse to have someone else clean up the two rooms and one bathroom we have, it's just not necessary, so my hubs "needs direction" he can not see that the trash is full, or that we need to vacuum or that the toilet needs to be scrubbed, so I do it and the laundry and the grooming and dog walking and plan for his appointments and never hear a thank you!!!!!
I found myself scrubbing the tub tonight and just crying. I am so mad and hurt and just ugh!!!!!! I told my M-I-L that i couldn't go buy groceries tomorrow because I have another midterm on Wednesday and so she was nice about it and did it, but I had to hear a "woe is me" story on how she is so busy and Mondays are her only easy day... when my F-I-L came home he opened the fridge and said "good job hun" ughhhhh.
It could be worse, I guess I should just count my blessings, but I feel horrible and I am done with telling my husband I need his help or if he can be a bit more considerate. anyone got any encouragement lying around or understand me? |