 Not Getting Better
It's been almost 3 months, and every day I still can't believe it when I open my eyes in the morning that my baby is not here. I thought that I was starting to be better, but this last 2 weeks or so I have been crying every day again. I feel bad because I havn't wanted to visit grave, but I don't want her to be there. She's not supposed to be there, she's supposed to be with me. I'm trying to be patient and strong and figure out why I lost her, but I can't and I don't understand. I loved her so, so much that it makes me angry inside, on top of being completely heart broken. Has anybody else had all these feelings? I'm trying hard not have feeling of resentment towards the person who was watching her, but I have to fight with my own heart over it, and have been physically sick to my stomach over it. I don't want to be angry, but I am. Thank you for listening to me. I just needed to let this out.
Seary Love ~June 4, 2003-May 22,2005~ |