[ReconsMomma]

I have been seeing some one off and on nothing serious. We both see other people. Tonite I have a date with a friends brother. Anyway that isn't my point. The guy that I have the date with tonite is hot and nice. BUT I couldn't think of what to wear tonite and we decided its a jeans and nice shirt kinda night nothing fancy or too dress so I didn't find anything in my closet. The mall is 10 min away so I go. I have on a baseball cap, sweats, a tank top and flips flops. Not looking my best. I run into this guy Ryan. He used to be friends with my ex. My ex was a jerk. He treated me like crap and when we were in public and he treated me like crap Ryan would always stick up for me. This caused problems for Ryan and my Ex, andy's friendship. Andy and I split and I had run into ryan a little while after andy and I split and we went to a hockey game together. Andy found out about it and raised hell so Ryan and I went our separate ways instead of dealing with drama. SO back on track now, Ryan noticed me before i noticed him tonite and came up and started talking to me. Told me how much he missed hanging out with me and all that happy crap. Told me I look great. (HAHA) Then gave me his number and told me that since it has been a few years since we saw each other he hasn't stopped thinking about me and would love to pick up where we left off. I couldn't help it. I got tears in my eyes and hugged him. He then asked if I would be free tonite to do some thing. I told him about my date and he looked like some one just ran over his dog ( I know crappy humor sorry) so I told him that I would call him in an hour and let him know if I wanted to do something.
So I get the clothes that I want, and then drove around for about 30 min. Called my date and cancelled and then called Ryan. I am meeting Ryan at 9pm. We are going for a boat ride to look at the stars and to catch up.

Here is my dilema. When my ex andy and I were together I used to hope and pray that Ryan would be out whenever we went out. Then when he was I used to spend all my evening talking to him and stuff. I had the biggest crush on him. Then when him and I actually went out a few times and all that I seriously was head over heals for him. He told me he could see himself with me for the rest of his life back then.
When I called him tonite and said that I canceled my date he sounded sooooo happy.
Im scared to feel all those things for him that I did then though. Honestly, there hasnt been a day that has gone by in the past 3 years (since ryan and I went out last) that I haven't thought about him. Seriously he is my dream man. SO do I just go with the flow and let myself feel whatever I feel or do I guard myself??

HELP!!

Here I included a few pics of him too