Teri, Take care of yourself lady! Yes, I think we all have times in our life that are all confused and not at all what we want them to be.
Grab a friend and talk her head off. Get it out and let someone help you deal with it. There are people on here who care about you and will be a sounding board for you.
I know life can be a real pickle barrel and sometimes we would like to pull the covers over our heads and forget about it all. But that's not the plan. We need your dry whit here! I need someone to tease! We need doggie pics! We need you to keep the Okra thread movin' along. We need YOU dear!