I lost my Evey on Valentine's Day this year so it hasn't even been 2 weeks. My husband and both of my girls (they are 19 and 21) have told me I need another girl. I have 3 boys still. Right now, every time they mention it I just fall apart. The thought of even looking at another little girl just breaks me down. But somehow I know in my heart that Evey would want me to give that kind of love to another little girl- I am just not ready. I don't know when I will be. Besides my husband, she was my very best friend in the world. I loved her more than most people, as odd as that may sound. I cry now as I type this. If you are ready than it's okay - you will know when. You're not trying to replace that baby, just wanting to give someone the love you have to give. I guess I will be ready when I can look at another little girl without breaking down. I am thankful for my boys but I know exactly what you mean - a huge hole was created when I lost her. I thought I had alot more years with her. You will know if you are ready and it is a personal choice. I just know that Evey wouldn't want me to hold back all the love I have - she would want me to share that again. But there will never be another Evey. I cry every morning on the way to work and every night- 2 or 3 times before its bedtime. My grief is so deep that it wouldn't be fair to that little girl my family is insisting on me looking for. |