I am so sorry for your pain and I fully understand it. ~Hugs~ I loved the pictures of her. You could see "sweetheart" in those eyes.
I recently read a Dean Koontz book that revolved around a Golden Retriever Rescue and a special dog (The Darkest Evening of the Year). In it, there was a passage that seemed to just hit me at the moment I read it talking about why we love dogs when we know it will involve pain.
"'Dogs lives are short, too short, but you know that going in. You know the pain is coming, you're going to lose a dog, and there's going to be great anguish, so you live fully in the moment with her, never fail to share her joy or delight in her innocence, because you can't support the illusion that a dog can be your lifelong companion. There's such beauty in the hard honesty of that, in accepting and giving love while always aware it comes with an unbearable price. Maybe loving dogs is a way we do penance for all the other illusions we allow ourselves and for the mistakes we make because of those illusions.'
..... Dear God, she heard nothing awkward in that. In that was the perfect truth of her eight years in rescue, as she could never have put it into words." |