Well you have every right to at least be feeling blue! You have been through so much. If you feel like your meds aren't doing it, please call your Dr. and let her know. After all you have survived you must be an incredibly strong woman and I know you can over come this but if your meds aren't right it makes it much harder than it has to be. I'm sending hugs. Stay strong!
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"If you have men who will exclude any of God’s creatures from the shelter of compassion and pity, you will have men who will deal likewise with their fellow men." — St. Francis of Assisi, 1181-1226