I totally understand how you feel. Keep us posted on Toby's day getting neautered.
I seriously HINTED to my husband tonight over my passion in my search for another Yorkie. He rolled his eyes,

but knows even though I adore Schatzie I am STILL trying to find a Yorkie I have pictured in my mind.
He looks at me like, "does it ever end?", haahaha. Yet he has so much compassion in understanding my feelings towards replacing Half-Pint (RIP) and finding the distinguishing qualities, confirmation, etc that I had with her.