I too had a very hard time bringing Teddy back. It took me a long time before we had a memorial for him in the backyard.
I need to get a tree for him. Something that will keep him shaded in the sun. I miss him so. I know what you are going thru. My heart goes out to you and in time you will be able to get everything taken care of. It's also very important to grieve. Don't worry if it takes awhile. It took me three years before I put Ted in his final resting place and I still have a bed for him in his usual spot.
