I really understand it must be tough going through what you are going through!
As you might know I work with overweight people here and I'll give you a little piece of advice for you to get started on treating yourself better
Maybe you can use and maybe not....
A LOT of overweight people are emotional eaters. How can you tell if you are one of those? Well, from today and for one month you are not going to eat or drink anything between dinner and breakfast - at ALL! You can drink water and that's it.
If you are an emotional eater you will find yourself being depressed, angry, anxious, tired, restless - or a combination of these things.
So what do you do if you are an emotional eater?
Most people can't do this by themselves and emotional eaters are often people who put everyone before themselves, so they are not very good at asking for help. But take the chance to help yourself get a better life and go see a therapist.
You need to establish what the food does for you?
It could be against boredom or loneliness. It can be a way to repress feelings instead of dealing with conflicts and negative feelings, you shove food on top of them and hope they go away.
It can be a way of filling that big empty hole inside of you that sometimes feels so intense you wanna cry - instead you eat till you no longer feel it.
When you have established that you must find another way of fulfilling that need - here, your network in very important - you need to learn to talk about yourself to your surroundings.
When this is done, you will find that you loose weight automatically because you only eat when you are hungry.
If you are not an emotional eater, there is only the tough way - altered lifestyle - and with your knee that will take a while. But you can still go swimming in the local "swimminghall" (don't know the word for that in english)
That will also benefit your knee.
I feel with you and I hope you get through this - for hating yourself is so unhealthy for you - but also for your surroundings. It is hard to keep loving someone who thinks they don't deserve it.
Good luck!
