Depression is an awful place to be, I was there the week of Thanksgiving 2006, we had a house fire while on vacation. Yes, I'm grateful, that we were not there, that God did spare our home. However, I lost one of my cats, 4 therapeutic salt water tanks and so much more. We had to go live in an apartment, which I'm grateful for but still it was not home, while everyone shopped and got ready for xmas, I was not with it. My husband is not the stand up guy, so I had to stand up to 2 insurance adjusters because they didn't want to give us anything. You're not in good hands with Allstate. The weeks went by and the insurance company sat on their ass with excuses. I would climb the walls within myself, the nerves, the anxiety, the depression, it felt like a tornado within. I lost so much hair. On January 26, 07 the insurance people gave the go ahead to start working on the house, Feb. 1st. Now it was the contractors, trying to do the least and trying to cheat us out of our own money. Weeks felt like forever. I'm the type of person that gets homesick when I'm away from home for a night.
I had to stay on the guys and finally in April, I could not stand it anymore and I moved back home. I told them to work around me
, they finished quickly. While the house looked nicer than ever, I was depressed and going at it with only Gods help.
In July I got Jazzie to replace the loss of my kitty, my fish. She is Great medicine. With her tiny size she has managed to clear away some of the sadness.
I have read that depression is part of healing, perhaps its true.
I'm sorry to read of of your sadness, I pray that God helps you through it. I asked him to help me and He did.
Love & Hugs to all of you in pain, & good wishes for all as well.