thanks for the advice of the faxing... ill have it faxed to him too... cuz i do think he'll take one look at me and say get out!... geez guys, thanks again! i love all of you! ALMOST everyone has been so helpful and supportive... without you guys i would still be dumbfounded... oh, i have not made the appointment for the surgery yet.. i still have to work out the payments.. but i did get courage to ask my dad to loan me 1/2 the bill.. i am waiting for a response.. i cowardly e-mailed him this morning... i just don't feel right asking him... he ALWAYS helps me out of holes, but i reasoned that it was worth a try... i only asked for 1/2 because i should have the other 1/2 in about a month, when i get my taxes back

.. i would ask the surgeon for a payment plan, but im gonna wait and see what my dad says. im keeping my fingers crossed! thanks for all the prayers guys.. i believe the Lord is listening..