[Latuya]

Sweety don't feel bad. I am in the same boat. I was always the skinny one till I got pretnant with my first. I was only 118 before hand and gained 75lbs. And not because I was sick or because of gestational diabetes. I was just lazy and ate alot. I felt horrified after the birth of my daughter. I was not able to get back to my normal size after that. I would drop 20 and 30 but gain again. I got pregnant with my son and gained another 35 lbs. The last visit to the doctor right before the birth, (that I try and forget) I got on that scale and it read 224. I was so depressed!!! I had my son and was determined that I was going to lose the weitht if it killed me. It took me 2 years and I did it!! I wasnt as small as I used to be, but was happy and was where I wanted to be. (135) 2 months after getting to my goal,,,,,, I got pregnant AGAIN. I took better care of myself this time around. I only gained 30 lbs. Needless to say it's been 9 years since my daughter was born and still am not at my goal weight. And have put on an exra 10 or so. I hate taking pictures of myself. And will only keep ones that only show my face. I also know my husband loves me but I know he wonders "What happened to that hot girl I married?" He has gained quite a bit too over the years, but he seemed to gain in all the right places. I love my babies more then anything in this world and wouldn't trade them for anything. But wow, what they did to my body,,, I just look at their beautiful faces and say to myself if this is what had to happen to get these babies,,, It helps me through and makes me want to do something about it. Believe me you are not alone!!! Take it form me, it's not easy but you can do it. You are not pathetic. And you can PM anytime you need to vent.