Eddie, I forgive your dad, and AprilLove forgives your dad, I think you should too. But just in case you don't, my mommy, MaryKay, wants you to come live with us!!!!
Mike, I have had a couple experiences similar. It is heart wrenching and hard to forgive yourself, but you are human, admit it and learn from it. I won't go into mine except to say, I paddle-wacked myself for at least a week after the mishap!!! and learned from it.