I'm sorry your feeling that way but hope you find comfort in knowing you made the right decision when chosing a forever home for her...yet, I know it's still hard. I'm kind of glad Diva had a singleton her 1st litter...she's 12 weeks old and guess what.........she's still here!!!! I could not do the breeding full time...I"d be a basket case every time 1 left...
Enjoy your remaining boys...I'm sure you'll find loving homes for them as well who will hopefully give them the same love and attention you would. Maybe you could suggest joing YT to them...that way you can at least see how they're growing and keep up with how they're doing...