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Originally Posted by sweetheartsok  Awwww Vilette thank you so much for your response. I am so sorry about the loss of your husband. I can't begin to imagine what you have gone through. You are amazing to have been able to get yourself back on your feet and take the time to respond to my post.
I have to admit that is the main reason I am going back is because I had a real big scare two years ago when my husband was 47 he had a heart attack. When I got the call from the hospital I immediately felt sick. I felt like my body was going into shock I began to feel like I was going to vomit and or have the diarhhea. I couldn't leave because my kids were little and sleeping. Of course this happened in the middle of the night. When I finally was able to leave and drive 2 hours to the hospital where they had taken him I didn't know if I was going to find him alive or dead. All these horrible thoughts were running through my head all the way there. One of them of course was what was I going to do financially because I was not working. This is probably the biggest reason for me to go back to work. I figure by going back to school it will allow me to make better money.
Again I am sorry you have had to go through this. If you ever need support or someone to talk to PM me anytime. I felt your pain for a few short hours and I remember clearly how awful it was. Do you mind me asking how old your husband was and was he sick? You are now going to be my hero because you have obviously been able to pull yourself together and are handling things amazingly well, you should be so proud of yourself. God bless you and yours. |
oh wow - and thank you. I know those feelings all too well and thank you for such a nice post.....I'm far from being anyone's hero....I'm not strong at all. I found that out after he died. If it weren't for friends
(MANY right on this site) and my girls, I don't where I'd be right now. I don't mind you asking - I'm better about talking about it for the most part.
he was terminal and we did know it - it wasn't sudden. I remember thinking when we found out that it couldn't be true and the doctors were 'guessing' ...as time went on & living every day with it, I
thought I'd be 'prepared'....but you just aren't. It was just as much of a devestating shock finding him gone as it would have been had I not known he was ill.
I'm sorry about your husband going thru that at such a young age - you must have been terrified......It sounds like your husband made a full recovery but that still has to be in the back of your mind on a daily basis...I know what you mean about being 'sick' - I was too.....couldn't eat or sleep for a long time & still have trouble.... especially sleeping.
in my heart I know I came a long way since that day in late August but some days I really wonder 'what's the point'
then I remember. The point is trying to make the most of what we have.
the best thing I can say is CHERISH who you love. It can change in an instant - and if YOU want to go out there and try something new - go for it. The day may come when it's forced on you and as you said - it's very scary if you're unprepared like I was. I should have been and wasn't. I think it was denial so speaking from experience - it's way better if you have something that you can do on your own
by choice...and a bonus if it's something that makes you happy.
and again - thank you for the kind words - they meant alot and if YOU need to talk - the same goes for me - pm me anytime. GOOD luck and if you do decide to try it - GOOD FOR YOU !