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Originally Posted by Bizzymammabee   I am sitting her and it's 6:25 in the morning...I haven't gotten to bed yet. I have been up 24 hours by this point. My stomach is a mess. Zoey is on her way to us.
This is such a bitter sweet time for me and the family. We a totally looking forward to holding and loving Zoey. I wanted her from the minute she was born...just not under these circumstances. It plays over and over in my mind ...wondering what if anything I could have done differently to save my baby. I really wish that I could turn back time and have Lulu back. As much as I wanted Zoey I want my Lulu more. I know she is an angel now running and playing at the rainbow bridge.
Everyone please hug and kiss your little ones for me.  |
I will give my babies your hugs and kisses.
I understand your pain. When I lost my 20 yr old cat, I played it over and over and over and over and over - I felt SO guilty that she passed, guilty! Even when nothing is your fault - I think you still feel guilty when a pet (or a human) dies - that you could have changed the fate of what was about to happen. And I think it's natural, but wrenching, to re-play the last moments/minutes over and over. It's so hard, but it will get better. Little Zoey will assuage some of that pain, I just know it! Lulu would want you to hold her little sister and give her all the love you gave her - and are still giving her.
Hang in there. Post about Zoey when you can. Hugs.