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Originally Posted by connie777  I've spent the last four days now (hard to believe it's been four days since he died) writing and rewriting my long e-mail. It's so long I think it's a eulogy. But doing that has helped me come to grips with what happened a little better.
It's like crying and crying (something I rarely do in life) until you are exhausted from it and you know you have now accepted the truth.
I spent most of yesterday putting photos with captions on them on a MySpace page. Just to have them out there in tthe world. Amazing how the internet has changed people, isn't it?
And just a while ago I posted the long story (about the same as the oone I posted here on YT) as a blog on MySpace. Not that anyone will read it...but for my own peace of mind.
I have a MySpace page only because my kkids do and I keep in touch with some young friends that way....and I can out the photos of what's happening in their lives.
Right now I feel it would be wrong to get another dog. And everyone seems to recommend it. And I am so aware of how much joy and comfort he brought to me. I was surprised by that when I decided to get a dog as well. I've had dogs in my life..but never a time where it was just me and the dog living alone. l think that was good for me and I'll probably need that again. Maybe when the weather turns warmer. I'm in wisconsin and it's a cold place now.
I'd want to be so careful to try to get a dog that was much like him. I wish the owner who sold Bentley to me would mate her Lily (his mother) to the same sire. That would be so nice. I think though, that she was planning to have Lily spayed after that liter. It was her only liter. Also...I think it would be hard to tell her I'd like another of Lily's dogs when I'd have to tell her what happened to Bentley.
Thank you all again for your heartfelt words. It means so muuch to me. |
You'll know when the time is right to get another baby to love, like you said, when it's warmer perhaps.
When our Starr died, I was devastated and my husband even more so. He is the impatient type and was absolutely rabid about getting another pup right away. I didn't want another dog EVER, or so I thought. Well, when my hubby wants something, he doesn't care about anyone else's feelings about it, he just gets it! Very immature of him, but nobody's perfect. It's just how he is
Well, the day after Starr passed, he dragged me around from pet store to pet store,and responded to ads in the newspaper and had me look for breeders online. He ended up insisting that we go and save Luna from the first petshop we had gone to. I tried so hard to convince him that buying her was only supporting mills, but he didn't listen, and we took her home. I was SO not ready for a puppy, less so for one that was as sick as Luna was
BUT---caring for her took my mind off of my grief for a while each day, and her cute little furbutt helped my heart to heal. I am so glad that we got her (and Izzy too, a couple of months after). If I had had a choice, I'd rather have waited a bit. I was exhausted from trying to get Starr better, up all night for about 5 days in a row, and then a sick puppy!
Anyway, sorry so long
Follow your heart, and most importantly, be kind to yourself
