[connie777]

I've spent the last four days now (hard to believe it's been four days since he died) writing and rewriting my long e-mail. It's so long I think it's a eulogy. But doing that has helped me come to grips with what happened a little better.
It's like crying and crying (something I rarely do in life) until you are exhausted from it and you know you have now accepted the truth.
I spent most of yesterday putting photos with captions on them on a MySpace page. Just to have them out there in tthe world. Amazing how the internet has changed people, isn't it?
And just a while ago I posted the long story (about the same as the oone I posted here on YT) as a blog on MySpace. Not that anyone will read it...but for my own peace of mind.
I have a MySpace page only because my kkids do and I keep in touch with some young friends that way....and I can out the photos of what's happening in their lives.
Right now I feel it would be wrong to get another dog. And everyone seems to recommend it. And I am so aware of how much joy and comfort he brought to me. I was surprised by that when I decided to get a dog as well. I've had dogs in my life..but never a time where it was just me and the dog living alone. l think that was good for me and I'll probably need that again. Maybe when the weather turns warmer. I'm in wisconsin and it's a cold place now.
I'd want to be so careful to try to get a dog that was much like him. I wish the owner who sold Bentley to me would mate her Lily (his mother) to the same sire. That would be so nice. I think though, that she was planning to have Lily spayed after that liter. It was her only liter. Also...I think it would be hard to tell her I'd like another of Lily's dogs when I'd have to tell her what happened to Bentley.
Thank you all again for your heartfelt words. It means so muuch to me.