My Natalie Is With The Angels.... I've come here three times tonight trying to find the words.... to say it out loud.... to write it down... to put it here...
And still, I can't find the right ones..........
My precious Natalie is sleeping with the angels tonight.
I am heartsick... and angry.... and empty............ and numb.
I don't know why, or how - and can only hope that she was able to feel some small sense of comfort in the fact that I was home in time to hold her as she took her last breath...
We were only away a little while... a few hours at most... and we'd spent a quiet Christmas day together here at home. Before I left, I contemplated taking the girls with me, but decided the holiday choas might be unnerving for little Natalie, so decided to leave them both at home.
She was tucked into her playpen, snuggled down in her bed when we left.... and only a few hours later, spent her last moments in my arms as she fought to breathe.... and then, rested.
I truely don't know how I'll get through the days without my baby girl... she was the world to me. I hope she is at peace..... and that she knew how very much she was loved............ |