Oh I'm so sorry. Your post brought tears to my eyes. It is obvious to me how much you loved her....I know she knew it too. I hope you are feeling a little better as each day passes. You have so many wonderful memories of her and those can never be taken away.
I have a cat that I've had for 12 years this summer, she is in great health, so I don't really even think about how old she is. It dawned on me recently that some day I would not have her anymore....the thought hit me like a brick since I had never really thought of her passing before, it really made me sad and made me realize just how much I would miss her if she were gone. She was the first pet I ever had of my very own. At that moment I too thought I hope she knows how much I love her. It is a natural thought to have I guess.
Anyhow, just wanted you to know that I'm saying a prayer for you and hoping that you are feeling better soon.
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