I am so sorry for your loss and I can truly understand the pain you are feeling.
I lost my precious Rebel cat last year at this time, during the holidays, and I knew in my heart that it would be her last with us. She was with me for almost 19 years of my life... longer than any human or other pet. She had helped me through so many difficult and painful moments in my life and it just about killed me to know that I was losing her. I watched her fade slowly and waited for the moment that she would let me know that it was time. I struggled and worried that I would miss the sign and there for let her down, but one morning I looked into her eyes and it was unmistakeable what she wanted and needed me to do. Unfortunately my husband was out of town and I had to do this alone, but I soon realized that was the way it was meant to be. I was alone when she came into my life and perhaps that was the way it was supposed to be when she left. I miss her every single day and I swear there are days when I hear her distinct meow, or I see a shadow pass and I am almost positive that it is her. I don't think you will ever stop mourning your beloved pet, but rejoice in that ... because it is a reflection on your love shared and it is truly a blessing. |