Thanks for all the understanding comments and advice! This may sound crazy, but I'm afraid to leave Logan with anyone I don't know, and I'm afraid that no one will take as good of care of him as I do
I fear he will run away, get hurt, or something else horrible will happen if I leave him. I suppose that is natural, too. It's hard for me to commit to leaving him next summer when I don't know if that will be possible. It would be nice to have the option of taking him with us, and then we could change our minds if I find someone to watch him. But if I commit to going on vacation next summer without him, when that time comes, I will HAVE to leave him.